New Pin In Life

Today marked my third week working at Shell.

It has always been my dream to be working in Shell, ever since I was in Uni. Getting in Shell wasn’t as hard as what I was expected. I would call myself lucky. From a click in LinkedIn, and it brought me here.

On end of June, I officially moved to Cyberjaya. Rented a studio house with another 2 housemate. My weekend at Cyberjaya has been great so far. The first week of July, I went to Melaka with Q & Nik. Everything was fine, until I lost my mom’s watch 😦

Last weekend, went to GPO to do my semi-annual shopping. It was great. Found my nike shoes and other stuffs. H was around, but we didnt get too close after our terrible fight over the phone where I was shouting like a mad woman at him. He started to distance himself. Which is fine.

Monday always seems to hit me hard on the face. I woke up and do some thinking of what is my life purpose, who do I think of on my first hour of the day, and re-arranging my to-do list. It has been seven months, and i’m still trying to get used to this single life.

My new project would be to write an autobiography of myself.

Mainly highlighting on my childhood life at school and uni. My relationship with family and friends. My career growth in the short span of three years. Everything seems too interesting to be true.

xx

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Mat Ayeeeee!

Hey, it is Hari Raya season again! Waddup Peeeeeenang~

Super chill, super excited, super happy to be back a week before raya. Altho the journey back to penang was a dramatic one *roll eyes* As I woke up late (as usual) on a beautiful Saturday morning, catching grab to KTM. Reached KTM, and running down the stairs to catch a closed KTM door *pat myself* only to know that the next station was the last station! Instead of going to KL Sentral, I was stranded at KTM Kepong Station. Lucky me, I was stranded with another 4 cute boys (we are heading to the same bus station to catch our bus back to hometown). And the KTM guy told us, to share a grab to catch our bus. And we did! mind you, one way to BTS, was around RM30-40, and I’m so lucky to found all of them, and I ended up paying RM20 (I paid extras, because they all look like nice good students) hahaha…

 

And there you are again, when I was at BTS.. My favooourite bus cancelled my tix last minute *darn it* and I had to repurchase and waited for another two hours… T.T

Reach butterworth around breaking fast time, and the kind (gatal) uber driver purposely use a long way to send me home *I cried*

The end of my long-winded story telling of going back hometown 🙂

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The truth is, I’m excited for this year hari raya, because last year was terrible. Hahaha, I prepare three baju raya this year. dont have to buy new one, because I can count how many times I wear kurung kurung this year. And it was great!

 

Cant wait for the actual hari raya to come over.. for now, I need to put a budget to burn on this hari raya.. Yeay!

 

Of Headhunted & Counter-offered

Being in a position of demand has open myself to a lot of opportunities. Yes, I have been receiving offers, and there are also times where I have to bluntly reject offers coming from Malaysia biggest and top multinational companies due to many reasons. Mostly, is because I have set myself a short and long term goals in my study and career progression. Of course, along the way there are hiccups, boundaries and sacrifices I made. Especially to jump from one industry to another would require a vast knowledge, not limited to finance, IT system and also, world class talent to showcase your capability.

From time to time, I have put almost 110% effort in making sure all my deliverables and subordinates are performing at top notch quality. Tough but is not impossible. Hereby, is the summary of companies which I have gotten offer, starting from my graduation days, up to now. I present my career opportunity and growth in a short of three years.

  1. CIMB (Rejected Banker Programme)
  2. EY (Auditor : Dec’15-Feb’18)
  3. Maybank (Rejected Corporate Banking & MFRS offer)
  4. Schlumberger (Management Accountant: Jul’17-Jun’18)
  5. UEM (Rejected Senior Finance position)
  6. Shell (Business Analyst: Jul’18 – 2022)

To a long way at Shell! Hoping that I could meet more great people in Upstream business, specifically in finance and soon specializing in MBA Energy, Oil & Gas by 2020 🙂

Best of luck, Miss Aila

 

Pursuing One Last Dream

After so many days, waking up just to drag my lazy bum to work. Like a robot, living in a same routine. Wake up, lunch, work, dinner, work, home. Repeat. Trying to find one last motivation for me to do something differently. So last month, I went to NZ career and education fair. It was a good eye opening. Of what NZ have to offer. But sadly, I still can’t get over studying and living in the UK.

This only to had me, start revising my Master plan. If I really am interested in further study in Master of Accounting, Finance, or even, commerce. Not something that I’m interested in. Postponing my ACCA only had me rethink, of what I really wanted to do.

And I go for MBA as for now. The requirement are rather tough. But I have one at mind. Always wanted to go to Manchester. I guess it started with my reading, and one of many influences. I used to complain it was hard, but a wise man once said, if other people can do it, nothing is impossible for you. Other people have their own time, and you, should strive for your time as well. I realize, it all takes a small steps to get to my big dreams.

University of Manchester? 2018/2019?

Sound impossible. Sounds too good to be true.

But I miss my study life. More than my working boring life, tho it earn me big bucks.

Love and regards,

Miss Azlila

Living in memories, Chasing the Future

I dream of him again. My ex husband. It has been two months of iddah. And I know it was hard for him to let go. He was holding me. It was just like the time back in Melbourne.

I have been waking up and pushing myself out of bed lately. With very less motivation, and been eating a lot to forget all my problems. Of course, problems come and go. And I couldnt run away from this dunya problem and its never ending. One solved, and another popping out from nowhere. I’m tired, and sometimes just praying,

‘If my life have any good in it, keep me alive for every second may have its own barakah. For if my life is causing me tribulation and misery in akhirah, to take me away from this dunya, and end all my sins right away.’

I’m tired. Exhausted. Of chasing for nothing. Nothing calm me. Nothing keep me at peace. I forced myself to sleep, to work, to eat. Thinking of it, just another mundane day of nothing.

Life, can be so meaningless sometimes.

2018 A year to reshuffle

Organization often restructured their employees and organization chart when their plan failed. They often come out with plan B or even a total 360degree of changes.

So it happen to be, the starting of 2018 sucks. I made decision and I had enough compromising with my life from 2016 to 2018. On my glorious days, I spend it half year travelling, and now I’m half way of getting myself together. they said there is no wrong decision. Only good times and lesson learned. And knowing Nur Azlila, she always choose to learn it the hard way.

So, I have taken 2018 to relax. Chill back and restructure my dreams and vision.

April goes by so fast. May and June coming up. And there you are. Half of 2018 is done.

Another half will be about me, figuring out and enjoying life as I could.

 

She live, She live well

10th February

It’s Saturday, and I’m here, in the same house. Not knowing what to do. His memories linger around the house. It has been almost a month since it happened. Out last fight. In few more days, it’s gonna be his 25th birthday. We officially got into divorced on 8th of February. There is so much words unspoken, so many tears and heartbreaks, so many guilt and misery. But all I’m showing to the world, is my laughter, my smile, my happiness side. I’m still struggling to bring myself up from all of this. The memories shouldn’t held me back. The scars are still hurting. I’m tired of crying. I’m trying to pick up all the pieces of myself. I know he would miss me. I know this would hurt him more. Since he’s the one who made this decision, he’s pressured, he’s sad. I wish I could hug him, and tell him this is not his fault. Allah has planned this for us. We were both struggling to make this work. But we end up, hurting ourselves more. I wish I could turn back time, and not meeting him. I wish I didn’t contact him and share him the news. I wish I wasn’t hoping for someone to feel my loneliness. I wish I didn’t take his heart with me.

Move on Ila. Stay closer to Allah.

 

16TH February

I’m on a bus, heading to penang, my parents home. Hometown so called. Slept over at a friend house. I really feels like it is my single time again. I’m starting over with my life. And what I want the most, to travel more. Booked my flight to Krabi yesterday. Without even thinking. Haha. My spontaneous senses is coming back again, and I feel so alive. Lets list out all the countries I have been for the past years J

2015

Feb : Koh Phangan, Koh Samui, Thailand

July – Sept : Jakarta

2016

June : Dubai, Mekah & Madinah

Dec : Lombok & Bali

2017

Feb : Singapore

March-June: Australia

July : Sarawak

2018

Feb : Singapore